Ryn ([info]toxic_mystery) wrote,
@ 2007-02-21 14:38:00
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I have something to say
I wont admit it to my family
I wont admit it to my friends
but I need to say it to someone
so here it is

On Friday the 16th of Febuary 2007
I attempted suicide
turns out a bottle of Vodka, an entire perscription of vallium
and a 300mg of cocain doesn't really get you as dead as I hoped
neither does slicing down your veins.
unfortunately

Now not only am I alive but I'm hospitalised
I cant drink, I cant smoke, I cant play my guitar
I'm not even allowed to go outside
my mother believes that I am looking for attention
and that the enire "episode" was just a performance
I despise the woman
I have for years
she'd do anything to be rid of me

why wont anyone just let me die

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[info]goth_wolf_rose
2007-02-21 03:46 pm UTC (link)
I've never had a suicidal friend before, so I don't really know what to say. Are you old enough/financially stable enough to move out of your mom's house? If she thinks it's an episode, she has issues. Please distance yourself from her as soon as possible. Get a youth rights lawyer, get emancipated, get something. If you go into foster care and turn eighteen while in the foster care program, they pay for your college tuition and textbooks for four years.

Nor have I ever had a friend in a mental hospital. That must be very unpleasant. I, however, am on the spectrum of, "They're trying to help you! Get medication! You will be better!" and cannot empathize with you. For the first time, I am realizing that being a permanent optimist is a bad thing.

I don't know what to say past this except I'm going to pray and light candles for you whether you like it or not.

Love,
Leena

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[info]dressedindeath
2007-02-22 09:19 pm UTC (link)
Because fucking killing yourself is selfish.

Why the hell did ya do it? and Who saved ya life?

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